WTF?

I've signed on twice today, only to sign off again. Simply cos I don't know what to write. My life is one big tub of confusion at the moment. People I never thought would, are getting married, or moving away, and I'm stunned. Feels like I'm standing in the middle of a huge square, with people milling around me, evertbody knowing exactly where they're heading, and what they have to do once they're there. Only I'm clueless, the only one not in the know.

That, plus my usual state of confusion about men, it too too much. No more, I feel like throwing my hands up over my head, and begging anyone close enough to hear, to "make it stop!". A friend from long ago just stopped by to bring me a gift she brought from Amsterdam, and tell me that she's relocating in a week's time. Oh. Ok. Thanks for stopping by. WTF?

And, to keep it piling on, The Collegue is messin' with my mind again. Being totally stumped about his latest behaviour, I called in the big guns, I asked a guy friend about him. He agreed with me, that TC is confused, and should be left alone, unless he actually DOES something concrete, and identifiable as 'a move'. So, even though I'm confused as hell, the one thing I'm holding on to, is that I offer him friendship, he can take it, leave it, smoke it, whatever.

Busy weekend ahead (for me), tomorrow I'm having a braai with the friend who's leaving. Sunday having coffee with a pregnant friend, who's confused about how to actually have her baby brought into the world, naturally, or by having him cut out of her.

WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON IN MY LIFE? IF ANYONE CAN TELL ME, I'D BE EVER SO GRATEFUL!! I'LL BE THE ONE IN THE SQUARE SHAKING MY HEAD, AND MUMBLING TO MYSELF.