MoFo Festive Season

Feedback first: No answer from JC. Collegue was locked in his office, with his receiptionist in front of the door, with a big "Do Not Disturb" sign carved in her forehead. Joking, of course - he had his door closed, and when I enquiried where he was later on, I got attitude from the volunteer body guard. I'm taking this as a negative answer on the question I asked about us having any future. Ah well.

I might be going out with friends tonight. I'm saying 'might', cos I don't want to. Although I love my friends lately I've been having a lot of problems with their general attitude regarding women. Some of them are the quintessential chauvinist assholes. I cannot stand it now, oh boy! My hair stands on end at the end of an evening, and I feel like spitting at them like a cat. So, I'm very uncomfortable with them these days. So, I'll go, but I don't expect to enjoy it much.

Anyway, I'm still on emotional autopilot, the numb feeling is back. Think it has to do with the time of year, I am not a big fan of the festive season. It makes my normally kinda 'dusky' oulook on life, a little more like midnight.