What I Am

First song of the day, Friday, was: "The River" - Live

"She's sayin: Ooh Baby, can my lovin' ease your pain,
bring your burnin' skin to my river once again
I'll bring you life!"

Beautiful, and really a good message today, feels like the Folk upstairs, might actually be sparing me a few thoughts, which makes me feel less shitty.

Second song: "What I Am"- Edie Brickell & The New Bohemians

“What I am is what I am, are you what you are, or what?”

Mmm, interesting...

So, this is what I'm doing right now, trying to find a few defining words that can help me find the person in here somewhere, without defining myself by the roles I play.

I am:
A Nurturer, making things, animals, people, grow makes me happy;
A dancer, rhythm gets me high;
Loving, albeit cautiously so, recently;
Loyal, you give me respect, I give you unwavering;
A thinker, I don't jump into things head first;
Strong, I'd rather stay alone than engage in meaningless relationships;
Weak, I let people choose me, and try to make it work from that starting point, instead of making the choice with them;
Feminine, all the bravado aside, I want to feel safe, protected, fragile, with the person I feel affection for;
Introspective, I believe that you attract what you project;
Friendly, the saying 'you attract more flies with honey than with vinegar' is one of life's truths;
Instinctual, Fight-or-Flight is always just below the surface;
Slightly off-beat, or, as my baby bro puts it, 'the weird one'

-Can't really think of anything else that is inherently positive, and since I've realised that I tend to define myself by what I'm not, what I can't do, what I don't have, I'm trying to change that. I'll do some thinking, and continue this when I have something meaningful to add. So, this is to be continued, ok?