I've done it! I've finally managed to close off that part of me that wants companionship and hates it to have this empty, shallow life.
So what if that means that I have absolutely no wish to have contact with anybody, and that I'd rather be completely alone in a sensory-deprivation tank, that life the rest of this goddamned life. It's ok, not to miss any of the people I have been in daily contact with for years, and it's ok to watch other people's joys and sorrow with detachment. It's even ok to notice in passing that I am sad, or angry, and feel like those emotions are situated in a part of my body that's not really connected to my brain.
It's ok, bacause it means that I stay sane. I'm not going crazy anymore. I'm as hollow as a drum, but at least I'm a sane drum.
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I made up my mind to start this blog, as a final resort against total insanity. I figure maybe, if I actually keep note of everything inside, it might make more sense, or even better - disappear into the e-world, never to be heard of - or felt - again. So that's what this is, my attempt at sanity.
About Me
- Sylphi
- Tough one, I think I'd rather quote a few comments made by family & friends about me. "Mad as a hatter", "hippie", "sin on legs", "should be kept behind a harem wall", "don't know wether I want to strangle you with a rope, or tie you to my bed with it", "too smart for your own good", "when you're happy you shine", "kruidjie-roer-my-nie" (which is a kind of herb that grows in arid places, when you touch it, the leaves close like the petals of a flower),"my angel" The list is endless, and very confusing, make up your own mind.